Thursday, April 4, 2013
D-Depression
I suffer from depression. It is more or less under control, I think, but sometimes I wonder if that is why my house is such a mess and why I have little motivation. In high school it was the worst, and then I've had a couple of bouts of situational depression. Nothing post-partum, though.
I know that exercise helps make me feel better, and lack of money makes me feel worse. I kind of feel like I get into a rut and I am not sure how to get out of it, not necessarily relating to my depression but to life in general.
I feel like I should know steps to take to improve my situation, since I have gone through cognitive-behavioral therapy, but it is very easy for me to backslide.
However, I'm working on things. I don't feel like life is awful. I don't have trouble enjoying things daily. I can tell what things are irritants to me (like Facebook!) and I try to focus on good things.
I think it works better for me if I make lists so I can check off what I've done.
I do try to keep an eye out for symptoms of depression in myself, but I sometimes wonder if I'm so far into it that I can't see it. Right now I am not feeling so great about myself but I am being kind to myself and I don't think everything sucks.
I used to be the gloomy Eeyore person in my family but now I have to be the positive person because my husband wins at being Eeyore and both of us can't be dismal doom and gloomers.
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well i'm glad you are managing. my mom has it but refuses to find a new dr. she moved from her old one and when looking for a new one they all tried things on her instead of using what worked... its tough and i cant imagine how tough!
ReplyDeletehang in there!
Thanks!
DeleteI'm sorry about your mom. I have been fortunate in that talk therapy and no meds has worked for me so I haven't had to go through trying all the different meds and doses to figure out what works.