Non-judging

I had a migraine last night and woke up all wooly-headed, which is pretty much how I felt for the whole day.  I did manage to get a nap, and write, and post my spiders on Etsy, and also finish two spiders and start on a third.
Baby Nick has been a sleep machine.  I hope he doesn't wake up at 4 a.m. ready to start the day, but it's possible.

I'm not sure what to say about the daily attitude.  I keep forgetting to look at it in the morning and think about it throughout the day.  I will try to remember to do that in the morning.  I am sure that I'll be able to think of some non-judging things that I've done today.  I think that I'm working on this with Max.  He may not pick up his toys the way I would do it, but that's okay.

Oh, that can be my non-judging story of the day:
This morning Max was eating his O's in the car and he spilled the cup of them in the backseat.  I heard him say, "Hey!  I spilled all of my O's!" and I told him I couldn't clean them up because I was driving.  He said he would do it himself, and while he was trying to pick them up, a couple of them went under his car seat, and he said, "It's okay."  This is real progress in his own non-judging because I think even a few weeks ago having his O's go under his car seat would have been horrible.

I am wishing I could find time to meditate each day, in the mornings.  I liked doing my seated meditation.  However, I don't want to fall into the trap of saying that since I can't have things perfect, I'm not going to do them at all.

I think I need some more mindfulness practice in my life at the moment, although I am working on things while interacting with Max and Nick.  Trust and Patience are the themes of the week, I believe.

It is finally nice here, sunny and actually cool this morning!  It will heat up later on but it was nice to open the door and have it feel like fall.  I hope we get some nice fall and winter weather this year.  Last year we didn't really have winter at all.

I have a lot of things to accomplish this weekend, but I'm going to try to take it one step at a time and not get overwhelmed.

Daily Attitude: Trust

Well, I am not going to go back to update for past days.
I am feeling a lack of trust in myself these days.  At some level I trust that I know enough that I will do the right thing and that everything will turn out okay in the end, but sometimes I do not trust that I have made the right life choices.  I suppose it's a bit late for that!

Most of the time I trust that I am a good mother.  Most of the time I trust that I am a good writer.  And that I'm talented in art.

Right now I'm falling behind on my crafting.  I have good ideas but seem to be floundering on getting started on some of them.  I would like to make little dolls and also crackers.  I want to order the snaps for them but I think it will be okay to wait until next month to do that.  Or if I sold something, it would be all right to order crackers.  I don't really want to spend more money when I don't have any coming in.

I need to make lasagna but probably not tonight.  I'll have to do it tomorrow though since I don't want the meat to spoil.  It's going to be good and I hope that Max will eat some of it!  He hasn't been eating a very well rounded diet these days.

It is my dad's birthday today.  On Sunday he and my stepmother are coming for brunch.

Daily Attitude: Non-Judging

I struggle with non-judging.  It is easy for me to negatively judge myself.  Or positively judge myself, for that matter.  I don't tend to be neutral.

Today I accomplished a number of things.  I baked strawberry chocolate chip bread.  I thought I had some fresh strawberries but apparently not, so I had to use frozen. The bread is very good but it tastes a lot more like Entemann's chocolate chip bread than what I was expecting.  It really has no strawberry flavor whatsoever.
I also made pasta salad.  That is easy and I will eat it for lunch and whatever meal until it's gone.
I would like to bake real bread tomorrow but I'm not sure if I will or not.  I will have to find the time.

I felt like I got more done today with both kids at home than I do when Max is at school, but I'm not sure why that would be.

I also gave Nick his first bath.  He didn't seem very sure about it.  He didn't hate it but he didn't love it either.  He is still kind of small to fit in the baby tub I think.  I took pictures and a bit of video.
Right now he's sleeping in the crib but he woke up a few minutes ago.  I think that means it's time for me to turn out the light and go to sleep so that maybe he'll sleep better.

There is a roach in here.  I have sprinkled cedar and peppermint oils all over the bed in hopes that the roach will keep away.  It is one of those smaller red wood roaches, not a Palmetto bug.  I still do not want it crawling around on me.  And I am so tired that I keep seeing bugs out of the corner of my eye.  I think that is another indication that I need to turn out the light and go to sleep!

Daily Attitude for Sunday: Letting Go

Well, I'm not sure what to say about Sunday.  I did some stuff I'd wanted to do, and I slept a lot because Nick and Max kept waking me up overnight.  It seemed like every time I'd get to sleep one of them would wake me up.
I'm working on having Nick sleep in the crib.  I suppose that is letting go in a way, since he's been sleeping next to me on the futon.  I'm trying to have no expectations so I can be pleasantly surprised when he sleeps for long periods of time.  It was so nice, though, when I actually got 6 hours of sleep in one stretch!
I have nothing else to say about Sunday.

Daily Attitude: Acceptance

Hmm, what to say about acceptance?  I have been accepting my tiredness and my lack of motivation today.  I am feeling uninspired.  However, I have gotten some stuff done so that's good.

My friend came over with her two sons and husband.  The visit went very well.  We accepted that Max was not going to want to share his wooden railway trains with her son, so we got out the Take and Play set for him.

Nick slept a lot today but not too much, I don't think.  We had a lot of fun listening to the lullaby renditions of The Cure and Nine Inch Nails, as well as some regular NIN.  He cooed and smiled and I took a ton of photos of him.  Max is great with him in small doses.  That is good enough for me right now.

Max and I are reading chapter books at night.  We started the My Father's Dragon trilogy tonight, which Max's aunt gave him awhile ago.  Max wanted to know how many chapters there were.  The other books we have read, Mrs. Piggle Wiggle and Uncle Wiggily, have self-contained chapters, whereas this book is ongoing so we'll see what Max thinks.

Okay, although I took a nap today I think I'm kind of tired so maybe I'll try to go to sleep soon.

Daily Attitude for Friday: Non-Striving

Well, I seem to have succeeded at non-striving, since I didn't even manage to get my entry posted on time! :P
I had a nice Friday, and had dinner with friends which was nice.  We went to my favorite barbecue place, and I had one of those coupon thingies from LivingSocial so my oldest friend at for free.  Nick was a total charmer as usual.  Lots of people asked about him.  I mean, all babies are cute but Nick is really really cute.
He's sleeping in his crib at the moment but we'll see how that goes.  Last night he slept for 7 hours, and didn't eat for at least 8.  Then after the 7 he slept for another 3.  That is why I'm trying him in his crib.
I don't know what to say for non-striving.  I feel like it would be better for me to look at the attitude in the morning so I can keep an eye out for it throughout the day.  Maybe I will try that for Sunday.